Sunday, March 18, 2012

The Sweetest Lady

This morning I went into my son's room while he was playing. I laid on my tummy beside him; he got up and laid the same way in front of me watching me play with one of his toys with the biggest smile on his face -- I smiled, and then tears came down. My Mimi has been heavy on my heart lately. I miss that lady so much and the fact that my son won't get to meet her and know how amazing she was hurts. I know she would have fallen in love with him as we all did. I would have LOVED to see her with my baby boy. I'm not saying he doesn't have amazing people already that make a point to be in his life on a daily or weekly basis, but there was something special about my Mimi. She NEVER saw the bad in people. She always had a positive perspective in every situation. Miranda Lambert's new song "Over You" is a perfect way to describe it.



I loved going to visit her in her home in San Antonio. I believe that's why I love the city so much. So many great memories there with my Mimi. I'm blessed to have had her in my life and you better believe she will be in my son's life. I miss her terribly, but know she's in a better place now.

I miss you Mimi....I love you. I'll see you again one day - until then watch over us!


Sunday, March 11, 2012

No Regrets

A couple of weeks ago I had a friend make me a sign that had Michael's and mine anniversary date on it with the phrase, "I always knew it was you." It's true. There has NEVER been a doubt in my mind that we were meant to be with each other. Even though others have doubted our togetherness, his family specifically. It's always been what we knew was right and wanted. I had always dreamed of a man that would end up being the love of my life, father of my children, my soul mate, my lover...and every time I had a man like Michael in mind. I remember we met at a ice cream shop in College Station and closed the place down...just by talking all night. We talked about our families, memories, our past...we laid it all out on the table. I left thinking he was special and I had to get to know him more.

It's funny, how love works...you know it from the time you have a deep conversation with the person and from there - it goes on forever. You never have regrets and you NEVER think about the "what ifs" after the fact. Don't get me wrong -- we have had our ups and downs, but since we had to live apart for 4 weeks our love has become stronger and since other "things" have come out in the open -- our relationship has blossomed far more than we ever thought it could.  We have "family" try to pull us apart and tell Michael the "truth"(hilarious!!) about me, but it won't work -- because this love is real and forever.

The way you know it's meant to be...is if you follow your heart. And if you have to be drunk to marry the person...it's not meant to be...a meant to be divorce, maybe?.

Michael Keith Strange, Jr is my soul mate, lover, father of my child, father of my future children, best friend. Period. He's my favorite always and forever. We refer to each other as our "favorite" and he had "always and forever" engraved in my wedding ring. It fits us to a T. My favorite always and forever.